I'm home! :) Yes, I do consider this still "home." Just because my body physically moved to another hemisphere, doesn't mean that I suddenly feel at home there.
The new year came and went (I was 35,000 feet in the air when we magically passed into 2013) and I realized today that I didn't make any resolutions.
I feel like that's a bad sign.
I always make resolutions, and I'm pretty good about fulfilling them. I also didn't do any reflecting, which I've made a habit of. Also a bad sign. It's my way of making peace with the past, and then moving forward. I feel like I just kind of stumbled into 2013 in a bit of a daze.
I have to go back to Brazil soon. Ew. You couldn't see me when I wrote that, but I turned my nose up a bit like I had just smelled rotten garbage. It's not that I DON'T want to go back to Brazil.. oh wait no, no it is.
I've been rather honest when people ask me if I'm looking forward to going back, or how things are going in Brazil. You want to know? Do you? Well alright. I've compiled a list of questions that I get alot, and then answered them for you. Like a self-interview. I'm so pretentious..
What is your last name and how do you pronounce it?
I'm continuously surprised at how many people can't remember my last name.. it's not that difficult, I swear. de Castro Lima. dih castro lee-ma. Not hard, right? Now stop calling me "Mrs. whatever-your-last-name-is."
When are you moving back to Canada with Deison?
I don't know. The visa process is only just beginning so.. I don't know. Maybe a year? Maybe 2? Hopefully not more than that...
So are you ok with just living in Brazil then?
No. I'd rather not. But I don't have a choice, so... ?
Why don't you like living in Brazil?
Uh.. well, I don't have any friends or family around for one. As in.. none. There are no other foreigners, so I often feel like it is my mentality against the world. I haven't spoken English in almost 5 months. I'm currently in the midst of a severe culture shock. (Yes, it actually takes 1-2 years before culture shock even really starts to set in so if you thought I was a grouch a year ago.. you don't want to see me now).
Why haven't you made any friends?
Because I'm a troll.
Just kidding.. or am I? First, I'm not a social person to begin with. Second, I haven't had to really "make" new friends since elementary school. If I DID make new friends, it just kind of happened because we either played sports together or had similar interests.
But to be in a situation where you actually don't have ANY friends, so you're only goal is to MAKE them... is just weird. And I feel pressured. And I don't like it. So I usually just retreat into my knitting. There's a million other reasons, but let's just say I'm a troll and move on.
Why aren't you tanned? Don't you live near the equator?
First, that's a dumb question. And yes, but have YOU ever lived near the equator? It's not like I just prance around outside when it's 5 million degrees of scorching sun if I can help it. If I DO go out, I wear a lot of sunscreen. Second, I try to go out once the sun has gone down to avoid melting into the pavement.
How is married life?
It's exactly how I thought it would be. A fairytale. Look at Cinderella, she had evil stepsisters and cleaning. I have evil rats and... cleaning. So it's pretty much the same thing.
But no really, how is it?
It's good. And like I said, it's exactly how I thought it would be. It's fun sometimes, and frustrating other times, and sometimes it's just nothing at all. Like life, really. It's uphill, it's downhill, and sometimes it's just coasting along without any excitement at all.
So what do you actually DO in Brazil?
Do you want the ear-pleasing answer or the ugly truth?
Ear-pleasing response [cue happy voice]: I'm really just settling in to life there, I mean I'm quite busy actually... since Brazilians eat their biggest meal at lunch, I cook in the mornings instead of after work like most people.. so that takes up a lot of my time. I'm also taking an online course to keep me occupied. I hope to start teaching English once I go back. *toothy grin*
The ugly truth: First, I DO cook alot. But... I also take a lot of naps in our air-conditioned bedroom to avoid making sweat marks on the sofa. I've also become addicted to Grey's Anatomy (thankyounetflix). I knit. I play video games occasionally. I swing in the hammock. I did start a course online, but I'm such a procrastinator that we all know I'm going to leave everything to the last minute before I really crack down and do it. I also recently captured a baby lizard named Lawrence and tried to raise it in a cardboard box. He got stuck in the tape I used to secure the box and died.
Soo yeah.. that's what I do. Productive right? And NOT a waste of oxygen?
Yeah, that's what I thought too. ;)
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