Panoramic Ponderings

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Don't Mind The Mess

Why I Have A Messy House.. And Why I Don't Care.

I think everyone knows why a stay at home mom might have a messy house.. she has kids who are constantly spilling cheerios, building forts, and doing arts and crafts. She has to make lunches, do the laundry, go to soccer practice, on top of a million other things. It's not hard to wonder why her house might not get cleaned.

But what about the stay at home mom that has a baby? What's HER excuse? I mean.. it's not like babies make that much of a mess, how hard can it be to keep a house clean?

I'll tell you why.

Luca is completely and utterly in love with me. I walk into the room and his face just lights up. I'm his favorite person in the whole world. If he could, he would spend the entire day just sitting on my lap and smiling at me. I'm the first person he wants to see when he wakes up and the last person he wants to snuggle with before he goes to bed. I am his everything.

But I'm not so naive to think it will be this way forever.

One day his favorite person in the world is going to be Billy who lives down the block. His favorite thing to do will be playing outside with his friends. I'm going to have to beg him to sit on my lap for 5 minutes. He won't be ecstatic that I gave him a kiss. He'll want his stuffed animals to fall asleep with instead of my shoulder.

But not today. 

Today.. I am his whole world. So sometimes.. I let him sit on my lap for hours and play while the dishes pile up in the sink. Sometimes we snuggle in bed and take a long nap while the floor doesn't get cleaned. Sometimes we sit outside together and quietly watch the world go by while the laundry doesn't get done.

Well what about when he's napping, you ask? Can't you clean then?

I could, and sometimes I do. But sometimes I crave just 30 minutes to myself where I don't have to entertain or change poopy diapers. Sometimes I'm so tired from carrying around a 10 kg chubster that I just want to close my eyes and rest. 

So I do. 

I take a nap while the housework doesn't get done. I play games on my Ipad for 30 minutes while Luca dreams away. And before I know it, the day is done and the laundry is not. But I have no apologies. Because the days roll on by and before I know it, he's off to college and I'll wonder where time went.

But not today. 

Today he is all mine. 

1 comments:

Well written and so true. You will never get these precious times back. Enjoy. You are an awesome mom.

 

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