entry denied

Well, incase you haven't heard the glorious news... Deison's visa to come to Canada has been denied. Ah, my wonderful life of denied visas.. will it ever end? Or will I live in this state of purgatorious [not a real word] limited movement where my life is forever dictated and restricted by a 2 inch piece of paper? *exaggerated sigh.

Of course everyone wants to know, "oh no, what next??"

An excellent question. One that has a million different possible avenues.

Could he reapply? He could, but the grounds to which they denied his visa are fair and probably will not change. Could I go there and visit? Potentially... but I'm working and time off would be hard. Basically it means we cannot start the process for his permanent visa [which we had hoped to start when he got here in March] until I go there in August, meaning I will either have to come back without him after the wedding (to keep working, so I can sponsor him as a spouse) or I stay... and.. think of.. something clever to do for 6-8 months while he works and we wait for the visa approval so we can both go back together. The only thing is, I can't work in Brazil so we'd have to enter into a slightly different process as I couldn't really sponsor him as a spouse to come to Canada with me. I guess what I'm trying to say is..... I DON'T KNOW THE NEXT STEP. We are back to square one. [as many times as I've been back to Square 1, I should probably set-up camp or apply for residency or something...]

My immediate reaction is to get a piece of paper and pen and start making lists and scenarios and flow charts and hope that a miracle solution will somehow immerge from my incoherent scribblings. I love to plan and create and problem solve. However, I am sick of trying to plan the unpredictable and uncertain.

I also just have this feeling that I should stop planning entirely; stop creating, what-if-ing, and trying to do everything myself [what I do best], and just trust God. I simply cannot fix this myself.

This.. will probably be my last post about this situation for awhile. I'm just really sick of talking about and going in circles and getting nowhere. But now you know. If you have any brilliant ideas or experience, please share. But keep any sarcastic, humorous, or completely irrational notions to yourself. I'm not in the mood to hear "hey we could smuggle him in illegally, it wouldn't be that hard! I know someone.."

Seriously.

Today is Saturday. I think I'm going to knit, drink some glitter and gold tea, eat copious amounts of sugar, watch some movies, and mope. Before I engage in my next figuring-life-out-philosophy and proceed forward with my life, I'm going to just be a grinch and mope around. Until we meet again....