the wait

Ah, bliss. There's a cup of steaming chai tea in pretty china, chocolate in my belly, and soothing tunes in the background. I'm ready to write.

I've gotten a lot of perspective this week. First let me say it's easy to play the victim. Everywhere I turn I see someone with a sad face and hear, "how are you holding up?" "It must be so hard." "I can't imagine." And yes, it IS hard. I haven't seen my fiance in 3 months, and another 3 will surely pass before I see him again.

But if I think about it... if I REALLY think about it, as impossible and heartwrenching as it is - two star-crossed lovers separated by ocean and sky *dramatic sigh* this.... is actually the easiest part. I've heard it said that "waiting is the hardest." And it is, isn't it? In our society of instant-everything. To wait for what you want is downright dreadful some days. The minutes seem to slowly tick by in front of your face.

But if I think of our lives, and where we're at right now... we're just waiting. That's it. There's no mortgage, no screaming babies, no bills to pay, no deciding what language to teach our children... we're just simply waiting. And I am conviced that one day we will look back and realize how easy this part really was.

So until then, I'm just going to listen to the wind howl outside while I sit cozied up in a blanket and sip my chai tea and realize how great life is.

Oh. And I'm going to reveal my little secret this weekend. Stay tuned :)